I promised to write about our successful ‘recipe’ that has helped the mummagrizzlybear household to achieve great things. I wrote previously about how change IS possible.
Yesterday Babybear and I visited some staff at one of the temporary schools that he attended during a phase of his life that was incredibly unsettling. Those staff haven’t seen him for nearly two years. One teacher (his favourite – and someone who certainly made a difference when he needed it most) recalled his first day when Daddybear and I dropped him to their school. He’d been out of education for about 4 months at this stage. He was not diagnosed with Autism and although we strongly suspected PDA we had at that point encountered very few educational professionals who understood our perspective. He was petrified and he demonstrated this, back then, by using the cave-man fight or flight responses regularly. On that day he attempted to abscond many times; he cursed and hit out when he was approached and like a wild animal was eventually contained against his will. I left him there. And man did I sob. I begged of the teacher “tell me how are you going to keep him safe?” You see, my only job had become ensuring just that. His safety. I’d stopped being able to be concerned about his learning or his enjoyment or mine or Daddybears’ real-life jobs. Bigger bruv had been shoved to one side; or more often than not, shut safely behind a closed door as this was the easiest way for me to know he wouldn’t be harmed. Life had stopped being about living.
So, to be able to happily greet that teacher, having left work and collected babybear from another positive full day at a school he loves, was nothing short of a miracle. Today’s visit was about marking a point in our journey where we can celebrate. We were able to reflect and share our ‘good news’ story with some of the team who had really only encountered our family at our most desperate. So you see, change really IS possible if you are open to trying out our recipe.
Each ingredient can be added in any quantity. The more you add of each ingredient the better the taste. But ultimately a dose of each ingredient is key to success.
Each ‘ingredient’ in our recipe has many ways it can be interpreted.
- A new way of thinking (because nothing changes until you change the way you think)
- Education (because knowledge is power)
- Self- care (because overcoming difficulty is draining)
- Collaboration (because going it alone is fruitless)
A NEW WAY OF THINKING is where we begin to make adjustments; it is by addressing our thinking that we discover how powerful we are. We discover just how much we have control over.
All of our THINKING influences how we FEEL and this in turn affects the way we BEHAVE. The power is therefore in what we think.
Too often we look at the signs and symptoms of any given ‘problem’ and then we fruitlessly attempt to change those byproducts….but this is what they are…the byproducts of something much bigger. We must go back a stage and first look at what it is that we ‘think’ about the ‘problem’. Begin right there. Does it HAVE to be referred to as a ‘problem’ at all?
I supported someone today who told me they were really worried about this coming weekend as “that’s when it’s going to get tough”. Holding up a mirror for them I gently exposed them to their own way of thinking and helped them to see how this linked to how they feel about the weekend and will undoubtedly impact also on the way they’ll experience it. The self-fulfilling prophecy innate in all of us pretty much guarantees that this family are about to have an awful weekend. When talking with them, it was clear that having their way of thinking challenged was going to be a new and quite uncomfortable experience for them. It is for most of us. A lot of us have spent a very long time practicing the unhelpful art of negative thinking. We’re good at it. So it really doesn’t matter what was going to occur for this family this coming weekend. Because of their way of thinking it was obviously going to be ‘tough’. You cannot turn a pessimist into an optimist overnight and to attempt to do so would be both daft and dangerous. The aim should always be to help make a shift towards ‘more realistic’ and to help shine a light on the balance between the possibility of doom and gloom against the likeliness of positive outcomes.
MAKING CORRECTIONS
Like taking an eraser and rubbing out some spelling mistakes, we can also rub out our unhelpful negative thoughts. Just like handwriting practice we can also test out an alternative ‘thought’ once we have rubbed away the error. Sometimes the error can still be seen; it might faintly linger, but we CAN write over that mistake with a new more helpful realistic thought. And the harder we push with that pencil the more engrained the more helpful way of thinking will become. Here lies the POWER. That power lies within YOU. You do have a CHOICE about the thoughts you allow yourself to have. You can CORRECT any unhelpful ones with something more realistic and constructive.
If you are struggling to come up with a way you can challenge an unhelpful way of your own thinking try presenting as though a good friend was telling you the thought. We are all so much better at helping others before ourselves. What advice would you give a loved one if they thought the way you do?
Some examples of common unhelpful thinking and some more realistic thoughts that might help you include:
A DOSE OF POSITIVITY
Some optimism is useful, but this can be added into your day even when negative thinking isn’t necessarily controlling your experience in an unhelpful way. Take a simple everyday task like brushing your teeth or driving to work. Imagine including in this every day task an internal mantra that helped you on the way to ‘feeling’ just a little more positive. At any point in your day you can add in a ‘helpful positive thought’. It can be whatever you’d like it to be. What ‘gift’ would you give to a loved one? A compliment? Some thanks? Recognition? Gift those very things to yourself by adding into your mundane routine a little spark of positivity. Think to yourself “I am strong, I am capable” or “today is going to be beautiful” and just see how that influences how you feel and what you experience. Use this tactic to also help you in moments of strife. Running late? Try, “I am calm even though my attention was needed elsewhere this morning” or “I am only human and my boss will understand”. Be kind to yourself.
These tactics all influenced the mummagrizzlybear households shift from a place of ‘struggle’ and ‘despair’ as we fought for babybear’s PDA to be understood and his needs appropriately met, to the home where we now thrive and not just survive. Our language has altered and I am eternally grateful to the many brave people who gently held up the mirror for me, so that I could gradually learn the ‘unhelpful’ errors that we needed to erase. We had experienced so much negativity, from seeing our child suffer to not having sufficient support that our whole world had become consumed by unhelpful language. I spoke daily of a ‘battle’ and thought endlessly about the things that had gone wrong. Our daily script was plagued by negativity until we were helped to practice noticing the ‘good’.
We are so much happier for it. It was NOT easy to come to terms with some of the things that I was inadvertently giving power to. The one that still hurts to this day was that through my thinking errors, I was allowing babybear to physically hurt me. I take ownership now for the fact that I had unhelpfully believed that as part of his condition he was unable to control his emotions and therefore lashing out was part and parcel of life with PDA. I was thankfully challenged on this and over time I was helped to believe something new. I was helped to THINK a more helpful, realistic thought. I was reminded that ‘everybody is responsible for their actions’ even when we are angry, scared, overwhelmed or unable to express ourselves, we ALL remain accountable for our actions…but first we need someone who holds us to account. I had inadvertently stopped holding babybear to account because I wrongly believed that due to Autism/PDA he was somehow exempt from being responsible for his actions. The very day I sat and cried and asked myself what I would tell a client who had been attacked, I realised that I needed to change the way I thought if there were to be any hope of babybear one day reaching the real world where he’d be arrested if he acted out the way he had become accustomed to treating me. That day was the day I decided to believe that it was ‘not ok for anybody to be hurt’ (even when babybear was distressed). This change in thinking changed our world. We built on this. We added, in small doses, optimism over time and we began to allow ourselves glimmers of hope. These led to us thinking more about ‘what could be good’, ‘what could go well’ and we focussed more closely on the positives we could pull from every experience. Even when we had ‘blips’ we learnt to challenge ourselves to gain some new insights from it so that even negatives could be turned into positives. I can hand on heart share that mummagrizzlybear has not been subjected to any physical outburst or injury at the hands of a distressed babybear for years. Now aged 10 our little PDA’er has been helped to understand what is and what is not ok when we are experiencing anger and frustration. He, like we all do, still feels these powerful overwhelming emotions from time to time, but he has developed safe and sensible ways of responding to them… And his self-esteem has improved as a direct result.
PRACTICE PRACTICE PRACTICE
Occasionally a POWERFUL negative thought will take hold. More often than not for myself this will occur at the wrong time of the month or when I’m run down through tiredness or feeling poorly. At these moments, resilience, self-care and patient rehearsal of practicing the more realistic helpful thinking is required. Nobody gets this right all of the time. The weapon in your armour is being able to notice the negative thought. They are automatic. Spotting it early gives you more chance of zapping its power. Noticing, for example, your head running you down with a “you’re so useless” message, gives room for you to respond internally with the correction (the more helpful rational thought). “Actually, I’m human, not superwoman and everyone has off days!”
This ‘ingredient’ from our recipe is about altering the way we think. Nothing changes constructively if we are in a ‘stuck place’ with unhelpful negative thoughts. If you are facing a challenge, believing that it will never get better or that it’s impossible for things to be different, you are allowing those powerful thoughts to dictate the experience you are living. For change to become possible, we have to believe that it IS possible first. We each have the power and this is step one.
Stay tuned to share in steps two, three and four.
- Education (because knowledge is power)
- Self- care (because overcoming difficulty is draining)
- Collaboration (because going it alone is fruitless)